Blessing Moon

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A short and sweet post. The Full Moon has been reminding me to count my blessings. To set down in writing what I am grateful for, and note the reasons why I feel grateful for that particular thing. The reason why is the magical component to gratitude work, otherwise, it is just a list without feeling; the power of your emotions is the propelling factor into expansion.

Want to play a game?

On a sheet of paper, begin with ‘I am grateful for … because …’ and keep going until you’re full of awareness for the beauty and blessings in your life.



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Vertigo and Ascension

Today, I woke up with that unpleasant feeling of walking sideways and couldn’t quite shake it, until I got into deep meditation. Its taking constant focus and awareness to move through the day.

Because I often like to use breathwork and/or sound to shift energy around, tracks like this one work well ( check it out if you need extra assistance.


I find that shifting energy also needs a component of grounding for the embodiment portion of exsitance. Its one thing to go into meditation and become spaced out and another thing to learn how to ground down into the body, fully present and here. That means eating good food. Walking, running, or practising yoga. Because we’re learning as a collective to be fully here, now, that means we need to integrate Spirit and Human into deeper resonance with eachother.

Ascension symptoms come and go as waves of energy filter through our bodies. The symptoms (like vertigo) don’t come from the higher energies of light but the blocks and resistance withing the mind and body of the personality.

It’s not uncommon to experience weird fluxes now and again; we’ve all lived many rich experiences that have caused deep expectations and beliefs to calcify within our cell memories. It’s important to remember that it’s all just energy, and any manner of weirdness can move through us as we shift consciousness to different frequencies.

Knowing how to manage your symptoms takes experimentation; it’s the deep work that I find so fulfilling.

As we process what we are willing to release individually and as a collective, we have a list of similar experiences to draw from that have been going on for years; making this transition normal. We’re spiritual energy in dense physical bodies, weird fluxes happen as we become less dense (pun intended). A partial list of some ascension symptoms I’ve experienced on a very basic level are:

Finding yourself is a state of extreme drowsiness

Strange body aches and pains with no medical correlation



Memory lapse

Body heat fluctuation

Change in appetite, food aversions

Skin issues

Tingles on skin and scalp

Out of body experiences

Dream walking

Emotional upheaval

Feeling lost/confused/having an identity crisis

Strongly feeling and seeing energy

Feeling deeply in tune with astrological alignments

Increase in intuition/psychic abilities

Surfacing of “past life” memories and/or flashes into other time-space realities

Seeing another person’s True Soul Essence

Having zero tolerance for lower vibrations


We are coming out of an age where we expected a go-between to shift our energy for us; we looked to others to absolve us of anger, worry and fear. We have been entering (for some time now) a period of Self-Sovereignty, and these symptoms are our transitional growing pains. Knowing yourself and what you need has always been important, and now it is vital.

Knowing how to manage these shifts for yourself takes levels of surrender and trust. Everything is always moving through you, nothing is static or fixed. You always have the choice on how you focus your attention and ascension symptoms are no different. These times are about learning to tune your own vibration.

How do you feel and what do you need? (see how I always work that in?) It really is that simple.

Getting outside, using the elements to cleanse and clear your energy is always simple and effective. If you feeling off, get yourself in and around trees, buy some bath salt and have a good soak. Take care of your body and nourish your soul. It seems that more and more people need permission to rest when they are tired; so if your body is screaming to stop, this is your permission from the universe to take a load off.

Honour yourself at your deepest level by listening to what your inner voice is telling you. Take a deep breath and sink into your body, sink into this moment. You have always been more than a just body and all the universe wants to have a conversations with you.


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Woman Unleashed


I’ve been quiet because I’m being loud in other places. It’s interesting how that happens in my life. My attention for the past five days has been on a 10-day art retreat, and I’ve been focused inward as I colour like a little child, discovering why I like to make art and what it’s for. 

A little hint: it is for the joy of it and nothing more.

As a child, I made art with abandon. I could get lost in my imagination or my creativity for hours. I like colour for no other reason than it makes my eyes happy. Then somewhere I learned that is was pointless to make art unless you are a master, and even less so if no one likes what you make. 

Somewhere I learned that making things for your own pleasure wasn’t a viable pursuit … that others need to be impressed. Everything you do has to have a purpose, and something outside of yourself has to validate that purpose by accepting it.

What a bunch of bullshit!

About nine years ago after my daughter was born, I began reemerging from within; shakily and still very much secretly I began to discover my creative play again.

I didn’t speak of what was bubbling up, there was really no point. But looking back, this love of creation was trying to surface much sooner than anyone around me would have guessed.  My one friend likes to exclaim when she comes over now, “Who knew you were an artist!” “I didn’t see it coming! ” It makes me laugh, no one could see it because I didn’t share it!

I didn’t share anything of myself, not ever. No one was worthy of being intimate, and everyone was a potential heartache waiting to happen … I know, it was a sad and bleak worldview.

Now, my ‘studio’ is our home, and everyone gets to see what I’m playing with.  I’m no longer guarded because I can see the gift that vulnerability and visibility are for myself and others. There is great permission in showing up as you are.

My level of protection (before) was perfect too, as such a vulnerable empath I didn’t understand about discernment or the power of consciously tapping into Source. But I do now and build my own level of safety into everything I do. I’ve learned that walls and layers were my only way of staying insulated against all the extra feelings I could pick up on. But what I sense and feel now doesn’t need to be fixed or guarded against, I am sovereign and know how to check in with myself fully.

Looking at it now, I had been hibernating before. I was dull and unfocused in the physical with regards to my creativity because I wasn’t tapping into my God(dess) Self. As a sensitive I needed to learn to plug into universal energy consciously, I needed to ground and trust in the all that is. It took some time to refine how I actively tapped into my Source Energy. Feeling it out now, much of my energy felt very surface and muted in all aspect of my life. I was protecting my tender nature in a very think energy cloak. It was like I was fearful of unleashing all of me and being visible at the same time. Up until I began unravelling myself, one layer at a time, there were many layers that only a select worthy few had ever been gifted with seeing. 

My bedroom as a teenager was covered in writing and art. I had altars to the natural world on every surface; sticks and feathers mixed with shells and crystals. And then I packed it all away as I began to find my adult footing.  It didn’t occur to me to bring it all with me, no adult I knew was in full possession of their magic, or their creativity … but then again, I wasn’t really looking very closely.

What does it look like when you unleash your wildness? What does it look like to unravel yourself from within?

For me, there is more colour, a recognition of the natural rhythms and pulse of the world and within my body than every before; I’m returning to the me of childhood. There is more flow and recognition of what brings me joy. And what brings me comfort is often very simple, my toes in the grass, wind in my hair. Colour. A great cup of coffee or some chocolate. A juicy conversation. These simple, natural things were always there, the knowledge of them came with me into this body, but I didn’t know how to direct the magic. I didn’t know how to use discernment to ask for what I wanted or to even create what I was looking for. Now I understand focus. Maybe it took packing some of it away (and then remembering the scope of it) to make me appreciate the brilliance of being a woman unleashed. 

Come checkout what I’ve been playing at for the last little bit …



Goddess in the Belly Art ~ Crystal Bonnici ~




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