The past few days I felt a need to turn inward. There was no writing, not deeper thoughts. No self-expression was needed, just being’ness’. It was as though a greats pause had come over me. I’ve notice this happens in times of great inner work, I reach a saturation level and have to emerge for air. In the past I would worry I wasn’t doing enough, I wasn’t focused enough, I wasn’t exercising my ‘spirituality’ enough, practicing mindfulness enough…I wasn’t enough, it always seems to come back to that core element.
I’ve come a long way from that person, and I honor my ability to know when to just allow myself space for integration. Today I know how to rest in what is, trusting that it is all the journey. There is never a time I am not walking this path, I am submerged within the Shakti Field always. There are time of intense focus, followed by a time of rest and waiting.
I had a thought this morning, the integration process is for my human to find its new form. Each layer I uncover shifts my vibration and like an animal whose cage has been left open, it takes a moment to realize that I’m free. As I grow and expand it becomes clearer that energy and spirit move quickly, but my human requires time to adjust. Depending on how outgrown my parameters are the adjustment could take moments, or months.
Time is a construct of this human continuum and as such it takes this body a bit of time to filter in new understanding. Until my cells learn to play in another vibration I must learn to walk before I can run. In short, my realization can be summed up in three words rest is good.